. DOTTY DOE

2011-08-30T16:35:00.001+08:00

I'VE MOVED!!!

Time for a change. teeeheee.

2011-08-20T11:11:00.000+08:00

My first dress,

What I've been so busy with, drafting till my back is sore. Staying in studio till late night, skipping meals. But its all worth it when you see the end product. (: and I'm so happy I was able to complete sewing within two full days and one night, phew! really tough to rush and sew, major stress!

cept the waistline expanded, i have no idea how it became so big, ohwellz!

one more blouse to go,

and there's still journal to submit on monday :(

hellow saturday, I'm heading back to school to do some drafting D:

2011-08-14T01:58:00.002+08:00

ohyes, and something I learnt from my battle King this week.

When you're learning something new, its okay to follow,

you can develop your own ideas along the way.

but sometimes, its important to listen and follow as well.

Never thought I'll say this,

but thankyou battle king for teaching me this (:

Maybe sometimes I really am stubborn and hard to convince, but I just didn't wanna hear it just yet.

and thankyou for your encouraging words as well. X

tough battle fought, but a worthy lesson. HAHAHAHAH.

2011-08-14T00:28:00.015+08:00

Hennes & Mauritz

loving the look

gloves,

my favourite model,

socks and booties,

privileged baby, so cute!

spring baby,

little baby,

socks I would totally buy,

I'm glued onto H&M videos and such.

Had my very first training today, and I can't wait to start work already!

Even though I know its gonna be tough, there's gonna be day to day challenge, but I'm ready to learn something new!

Love how the management in H&M has such an open and simple concept. And the people are so fun loving and friendly! Seems like a really good environment for me to start off and learn many many new things! I'm staying really excited, and not thinking about the craziness in the store as of yet. HAHA. The employees also gets so much freedom such as dressing in our own personality and such. so fun! heehee.

I'm so glad I made this choice to join H&M! I feel like I'm living again, hahahah. I've been so bored at myself for always being so scared to juggle school and work, or maybe its just cause I've rested enough.hahah. Since I've been adapting (maybe not so well, but well enough) and readapting to school life, (btw, block system makes it like a monthly change of lifestyle.HAHA) I guess its time for some new challenge? And lastly exploring my options, creating career prospects (maybe?) And earning mooneyyy!!!

I hate it when I say I'm scared to dah dah dah. (Even though I say it prolly quite often, well its time for a change jas.)

Gawd, that has got to be my swear words.

Btw, i just saw a video on china shopping guide, and myohmy, china's quite trendy huh, okay i wouldn't mind dropping by for a visit soonish (if i have the cash that is)

And I can't wait for nepal! Travelling! I love love love travelling!

I felt so lost after aussie, cause suddenly i had nothing to look forward to, but now i have! eggcited much! X

I'm ready for some new adventure!

Do not go where the path may lead,go instead where there is no path and leave a trail... (emerson)

2011-08-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

Something that I read on design studies club's facebook wall.

Just when I needed it (:

"Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through." — Ira Glass

Go Designers! :)

2011-08-10T01:50:00.004+08:00

Bottle caps,

Great ending to my (possibly)longest holiday in a block of school. HAHAH. I'ld love to play Dora the Explorer anytime! HEE.

First time I walked into "Hansel" today! so pretty concept and all. "curiousTEEPEE" too! MEGA LOVE the concept! Creative and Inspiring much! favourite shop! Apparently, their latest collection's from http://seeutomorrow.com/ (I read it off the tag) unique,cute and interesting stuffs over there! au'some au'some! I'm really so inspired! There's also this really raw local touch to their things, and i love that tinge of localness somehow, furney. I also visited TOPSHOP at Knightsbridge today! HEAVEN. so much variety and pretty pretty clothes!

Great shopping day with thy brotherly homies! HAHA!

Okay, really inspired to start on my assignment one dress right now! heehee! Love how I can actually shop and do my little researches for my assignments sometimes!

Lastly, Holland Village. Aww... love that place somehow (:

Soul searching

"Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside? "

2011-08-09T12:25:00.003+08:00

shopping like a boss

pocket's like a loss. D:

but still,

happy like a joss.

I don't really get why kyungmi gave us a FOUR DAY BREAK.

It's crazaye! I haven't done my designs and i've been having so much fun.

so gonna have trouble tuning back to work mode :/

HAHAHAHA.

And HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE!

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELDY BBG BFFF DFF <3

2011-08-07T03:56:00.002+08:00

I WILL MARRY AMUSICIAN,

no kidding, they're sooo charming!

First time at Timbre sub station tonight, it was au'some! Greatmusic, great food, great people! best thing is we made david go up to sing with goodfellas by sending in our dedication.

WOOHOO!

Ginormous moovie screening

and au'some picnic

with a big mat,

all hail king david. HAHAH.

(was trying out some galaxy prints! HAHAHA. so pretty effect right!)

Tonight made me realise its time for me to loosen up.

loosen loosen up!

time to enjoy life and have some fun,

and be cheeky.HEEHEEHEE!

hearts out world! world world world!

2011-08-07T03:30:00.001+08:00

Great weekend,

CAMP FRUCEEE!!!

baby nicolle!!! so loveable! <3

2011-08-06T00:47:00.006+08:00

WHIMSELLE,

somewhere away.

Carousel dresses,

oh sweet sweet

and, everyone still matters so much.

I miss me being me,

everything but this.

2011-08-04T12:22:00.001+08:00

true much.

2011-08-03T10:20:00.002+08:00

that dance,

i like the idea how things appear this way,

and on the other side, its something else.

side note, i know i should be blessed i'm in this family.

but sometimes i can't help but feel so frustrated how everyone is too chill about their job.

wouldn't it take us nowhere?

and everyone's actually wanting to be somewhere far away from here,

okay maybe not them.

just me and my sis maybe.

and i hate money issues. its so fucked up.

ADIOS,

til my mood is alive.

2011-08-03T01:24:00.003+08:00

PERSONALITY TEST 101

( ALMOST 90% ACCURATE, this is so freakaye.)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2011-08-03T00:44:00.020+08:00

you remind me of.

Just felt like posting up some past weeks peektures!

Benny's birthday,

old man.

nahkeep's cool cammm. HAHAHAHA.

Weehung's birthday, USS!!!

FOUR RIDES on Human and TWO TIMES ON GALACTICA, FOUR TIMES mummy... and more.

for the princesses (teehee)

brother nahkeep!

homie and brother. HAHAHA.

urm, walking.

transition back to reality.

I love how USS totally feels like another world.

" we need fantasy to survive because reality is too difficult."

city of colours,

and, its august already...

to be continued c:

2011-07-27T00:57:00.004+08:00

powerful imageries,

" caught up in this moment

caught up in your smile

i don’t want to mess this thing up

i don’t want to push too far

just a shot in the dark that you just might

be the one i’ve been waiting for my whole life

it’s never felt so real, no it’s never felt so right

let’s just take this slow "

but then again, i never know when i'm right.

2011-07-23T14:09:00.011+08:00

Say hello to goodbye

This week's discovery,

Role model

Apparel inspirations

Worldly inspiration

so cute,

whimsical doors,

take me away to somewhere new,

i'm sick of all these materialism and artificiality.

My heart was on the line

Say hello to goodbye, cause its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

sometimes, i really hate to be perceived as something.

you don't know me.

cause even i don't know myself.

i hate to talk about it,

but i always end up talking about it.

2011-07-21T23:48:00.007+08:00

candy and the candy man.

I finally took some time off to do sew up something for myself the other day! yay!

mood's a terrible whirlwind right now. ;/

Truth is, we all drift.

periodic friend,

when it comes to someone special, i am always so wrong.

you're so right yet so wrong.

2011-07-05T01:49:00.004+08:00

I just took a trip down all my past journal entries.

http://jassylynn.blogspot.com/

And, i realised, So much has changed.

It's only about three years back,

but it feels so long ago, yet its so fast how it zoomed pass.

I realised how unknowingly, special people mattered to me.

I cared so much about them, but i never knew.HAHAH.

I wonder if my friend still keeps my drawings,

or if churchies still keep the christmas cards I gave out,hahaha.

And, i still can vividly remember how i wanted every moment of my life to be documented.

I loved my life that much.

but its either I'm too busy now, or i just don't see that much of a need to document it anymore.

Because enjoying that moment matters more now,

and its all in my memory. heehee.

2011-07-05T00:00:00.005+08:00

Dear absent heart,

" take me away, I need the sand and the waves

The sunset and lets not forget those warm autumn days

I just need to get out of here.

There's got to be something else out there for me.

I could feel it in my heart the day I started to dream.

There's more than this Midwestern town.

I can't let this place keep me down. "

I like circles because,

like life, all's a cycle in a circle.

2011-07-04T01:12:00.004+08:00

I don't do awkwardness.

it's so confusing it confuses me.

Ever felt like you just wanna run so far (yes,far) away from the past?

Hoping they'll never catch up?

Yet I'm still wishing to return,

to what was.

It's so confusing it confuses me.

it seems like i know you.

but no, i don't.

cause it isn't what it was

anymore.

That is why i hate awkwardness,

I saw you in awkward.

Never like that again, goodbye.

for real.

2011-07-01T14:57:00.043+08:00

Geminis only show you what they want you to see,
and what they want you to think.
But there's more to them than just what you see.

When I was younger, way younger, I use to think everyone lead the same life. The usual studies, then work in the air conditioned boring office. That was what i saw my parents lives to be, so there I thought, this is the normal perfect life i would have. Then I had dreams, dreams about being a singer, an actress, and yadah.

But as I grew older, i had bigger and wilder dreams, and also, i discovered, we have many alternatives to live, you can screw it up, or live it up. HAHA. And well, maybe geography did help in letting me see the world. HAHAHA. i never knew there were so many countries or that africa had a city. HAHAHAHAH. SHIT ME RIGHT.
Anyways, since then, I've always wanted to know how the world lives. Its really interesting isn't it! I actually wish i can live all over the world til i die. HAHAHA. okay, maybe not so much the forested area, i'm scared of bugs and all. maybe like max a week at those areas. HAH. And i find it really amazing how everyone's so different.

And so, well, this trip kinda made me see how people lived over there, its way less stressful but not so much hype as well. thanks to my cousins over there with the stories,hahaha. And anyway, i've always pictured myself living like that. honestly, i don't see my future here in singapore. I don't picture myself surviving in this environment. hahaha, it's just too fast for me.

And sometimes, just sometimes, i get sick of knowing too much about people. I wonder if there's a bunch of just pure happy and kind hearted people in the world. I would love to meet them. hahah. and actually, i do believe there is!

our dreams.

cute or whut.HAHA.

home cooked dinn, dah bestest.

the ones that made it happen.

notice my loving parents on the left (once in awhile thing okay. HAH)

whaddup THE HEIGHT.

uncle patrick and auntie nancy's place! big or whut!

chips chips chips!

reunion dinn!

Campos, Eugene's cafe.

view from alvin's 43 stories high apartment!

the authentic church. sweet.

the houses I've always wanted to live in. woody woody, or cottage like. HAHA.

with saddened hearts, goodbye. FOR NOW ;)

I actually wanted to write more, but i figured I'll just jot those down in my journal. HAHAHA. Anyways, Ive learnt alot of my family history and more about my family and immediate family through this trip. So I must say it was a fruitful and enjoyable holiday! And i realised grandad was rich! how come the wealth didn't pass down D: HAHAHAHAH. ohwell. I STILL LOVE MY FAM!

2011-06-29T02:14:00.002+08:00

definitely my best holiday thus far!

Just like in my dreams. heehee!

I'm missing Brisbane so much. :(

I really wanna head back there right now.

2011-06-16T11:36:00.002+08:00

oh, sweet brisbane.

ohyeah! Report is done!

Leaving for brisbane soon! Leaving house soon actually! I'm bringing lappy so i can communicate with the world. woohoo!

I feel like i'm gonna miss my friends teehee! love love everybody!!!

hair is fading from hot pink, to pink, to idk what shit is this. its okay.

With a tinge of pink, brisbane here i comeeee! <3

My dream from young fyi, i gonna see angmoh everyday.HAHA

meeting distant cousins tooo!

MAD EGGCITED!!!

okay, gtg. love love everybody!!! (:

2011-06-10T01:45:00.001+08:00

I'll rather think and think.

And, Feel nothing at all.

6days on the countdown to brisbane!

2011-06-09T01:45:00.004+08:00

substance or shallow beauty?

I'll pick talent and substance over anything in the world. Its something that will keep you ever interested. Shallow beauty is just plain boring.

2011-06-08T00:13:00.003+08:00

take me away,

photo credit: Hanif

UNKV shoot was yesterday! It was fun styling and such, but designer shot was just awkward for me, everyone staring right at you is no joke. I CAN'T TAKE AWKWARD MOMENTS NO KIDDING. HAHAHAH.

so yerp, thats my outerwear there! Hope its looking good, received pretty good comments, but workmanship still got much to improve.heehee. Go Jas GO! GOOO UNKV!!!

GOOD DAY TODAY! finally had dinn in school with DFFs! AND I HAD A GOOD TEN HOURS OF SLEEP. OHYEAHHH!

I love it when i talk nonsense to dharshymarshy and the girls or just goof off at random stuffs. ♥

2011-06-06T01:21:00.002+08:00

outerwear baby.

(picture totally unrelated to what im gonna say)

I feel so disappointed in myself for not doing my prototype properly.

Its okay, four more to go jassy!

DO IT RIGHT.

If my prototype can't sell, I'm just gonna buy it myself. since mum likes the colours.

heehee.

Really hope it'll sell though. TEEHEE.

I promise to package it pretty pretty okay! HAHAHA!

2011-06-05T22:02:00.002+08:00

one time,

that was about the highest i got, after that, i was just sleepy. HAHA!

we lived the pact jocey ♥

Last weekend was dah bomb. spent the entire weekend lepaking.

love it. ♥

thanks jocey, kieran and alethea for joining me on my first time there! HAHAHAHA.

2011-06-05T21:33:00.008+08:00

letters to my fam,

"designer" cake by fam.

cutest idear ever ♥

thankyou fam fam! HAHAHA.

2011-06-05T18:37:00.010+08:00

Letters to my Design Friends,

Thanks for discovering i have a whooper face,

for this picture. i agree.fully.

i have never felt this awkward walking around the school.

Thank you for this special experience? HAHAHA.

same cake as last year,but I LOVE IT!

wishes were for you guys!

HAHAHAHAHAHAH AT THE PICTURES.

super surprised they came,honestly.

happily opening my MBMJ! TEEHEE!

thankyou my dear friends (:

Thankyou my dearest DFFs for planning all these. The posters the surprise secondary school friends.THE PRESENT OMG MOST EXPENSIVE PRESENT EVER. thankyou guys so much for making my eighteenth so special :D I never did expect this much, sincerely. ♥

My secondary school friends, thanks for coming down,HAHA. i dont know how to say mushy stuffs to you guys, but i was really happy and touched that you guys were there. thankyou! really missed you guys much, since we've known each other for four years! i hope nothing will change. the brotherhood is still there i hope! HAHAHA.

All the sengkangians who were there, thankyouuu for taking time off for the celebration. heehee!

Thankyou Felix and mich for joining in the celebration too! UNKV groupmates!

And, lastly, to my dear clique 21, i love you guys alot! thanks for the laughs and nonsense with you guys! You guys take away my stress from school and add fun to my school life, thankyou for being there ♥

I FEEL SO BLESSED THAT I HAVE ALL OF YOU GUYS!

2011-06-05T17:25:00.002+08:00

Today, i cracked.

I wish I could embrace myself in every single way but i can't.

There's so much i want to change.

Some i don't have the capability to change.

Some i just can't change.

For this, Fuck the world.

2011-05-28T04:02:00.004+08:00

Prelude,

thankyou two lovelys! for taking time off your busy schedule to hangout for the night!

awesome dinn on the swing! and i love the collages!!!

so much memories my dears. (:

love you two veh muchy!

♥

2011-05-28T00:16:00.022+08:00

DREAMY MAY (NOT)

Really busy busy first block of the semester! I practically ate only one meal everyday, and that's super late dinner. But it was more than enough, cause it was dinnersss with my bestest friends from school! AWWW. HAHAHAHA! Been really rushy, working on draping and such, and submission was extended for a week, so my birthday week was somewhat interrupted, which kinda sucks. but ohwell, submitted TODAY! WOOHOO! Fashion Retail management up next. And in about less than three weeks, BRISBANEEE!!! CAN'T WAIT OOOOOHYEAHHHH!

Anyway, past month was pretty tough, its like a war within me everyday. I must admit i struggled pretty bad, i only remember feeling quite upset, but i can't rememeber why anymore. But i guess i've learnt and grown over the month? I'm eighteen already, time for a change jas. stronger jas (: HAHAHEEHEEHO.

vpress assignments to share,

MA'WEEEEEEE IKEA SARDINE!

sleepy lousy days like this.

DOC refreshhh.

HELLOW MAH FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

greedz me.

HAPPY 18TH DARYL!

you have no idear how happy i felt meeting up with the secondary peeps.

familiar faces. i miss those times guys ♥

random skype sessions with the budds!

thank god for them, i will feel so lonely without funny them, and also someone to talk to about the

fierce kyungmi.HAHA. THANKS BUDDS!

dinners amidst the stress.

shall write again soon about my 18th birthday ♥.

butter tmr? I hope It'll actually happen this time.

2011-05-01T15:10:00.003+08:00

It's MAY already,

just felt like posting up some peektures from holidays.

Really miss holidays.

Gotta go now,

gonna meet my dear yirong from some shopping (:

write again soon.

2011-04-25T01:09:00.002+08:00

MA'NI !!!

DOC WAS A BLAST. A BLAST. A BLAST!

Even after three days, I'm still not over it.

I personally enjoyed this camp alot, because i gave it my all. It was really my best, even if its not good enough, at least i know this is my best! (: I loved my sub empire alot, cause they were really cooperative, especially a couple of louder ones, they really made my camp enjoyable much! LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

AND RIGHT NOW, I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS. HOPE WE'LL ALL HANGOUT MOREEEEEEE! (:

TRADITIONAL DESIGN SHOWERRR!

school starts tmr, i'm really dreading it, cause im gonna take visual presentation with basic draping. And i'm currently so sick, ARGH. :(

Goodnight yall!

2011-04-16T02:01:00.010+08:00

Action time,

I feel freeeeeeeee with mah short hair.

Yesterday I met someone different, someone who told me Just do what you love to do. "If you want to go to paris, just go to paris". I know he made it sound all simple, but he really made me believe. He's different because no one has ever told me in mah face to believe in the wildest dreams, and go on and explore and enjoy. And, he said "no one will die alone".

Most i've heard about through the years were practical living. which makes sense, but it makes too much sense its boring. maybe you would disagree with me. But I found that new friend really special. He has definitely made an impression in my mind, just that i dont know when I'll ever get to meet or chat with him ever.

Worked as a dresser for Tangs superheroes yesterday. My first paid dresser job. It was fun because the models looked super duper cute dressed up in the "costumes" and such. But bad cause i made a few silly mistakes. but yeah, survived the mad rush anw.

I dressed batman and storm. Worst combi, not the clothes, but the models. They were really professional and all? The guy was just plain annoying, and it felt really weird being so upclose in his face. He was damn cute, but still such a douchebag. And i had to dress him, which honestly, im super uncomfortable. I think i'm boy shy maybe. HAHAHAHA. whatevs.

And i had to check on the makeup for mayzee, so i just sat there talk to the models and such, it was quite interesting, cause i talked to the brazilian model about her life and such, and she told me how she prepared her rice and all. and that's when i made my first mistake, i missed mayzee's call. bet she was upset. damn D:

Model's life seems so easy; makeup, break, dressed, walk, goodbye. YET THEY STILL GRUMBLE ABOUT THEIR JOB. OHMY.

Ohyeah, and i finally met my secondary schoolmates, the gang of brothersss, hahahah, or whatever they called themselves. There wasn't much for me to say. But its funny how I do miss them, but when we meet, i don't really know what to say. hahah. ohwell ohwell.

Anyways, Jocey's in the hospital, latest update's that she's down with kidney infection. Everyone please pray for jocey :) thankyou.

I'll be away for FIVE DAYS in camp,

I felt like I just packed my whole home into my bags.

I'm gonna miss mah bed.

I miss jocey already, so poor thing stuck at the hospital alone with strangers :(

2011-04-14T23:54:00.006+08:00

courage oh courage.

Today I bought a collar for twelve dollars, and i don't even know why I bought it?

Haven't been having the time of my life, but today marked a day that I rethink loads of stuff. And actually act on it.

Bieber moovie was somewhat inspirational and motivational, if not for the fact they're prolly trying to sell bieber. But still, bieber's really gifted i must say.

I remember one very distinct quote from the moovie, " you can whine about wanting to lead a normal life. But you've chosen the not-normal life, so now this is your new normal. "

so important to be courageous aye.

2011-04-13T03:48:00.008+08:00

D O T T Y D O E .

Instead of the usual forward looking,

I took a trip back today,

it reminded me of me.

☮

2011-04-09T00:59:00.003+08:00

Bri_ish boy and Beldybones.

(HAHAHAHAHAHAH. OMG GREAT DISCOVERY)

love having fun,

goofing off,

maybe day dreaming (mad love)

and urm, yeah.

ohyeah.

I think I'm a professional photographer? no? HAHAHAHAH.

TODAY IS A GREAT FANTABULOUS DAY!

NEVER FELT THIS HAPPY IN THE LONGEST WHILE!

TP DESIGN SHOW WAS SOOO GUUUUUUUD!!! I'm proud to be a design student in TP. HAHAHAH.

I was a dresser backstage for the models, and it was mad rush. but mad fun somehow! I think this time round i enjoyed it way more because the people were way nicer, they were our seniors from ADM, and they're really nice! they even hug and thank us after the show! so sweet! HEEHEE.

And I felt so mega accomplished, like YAY! I HELPED! HAHAHA.

It was such an experience as well, because its the first time in many years TP's hosting an outdoor (as in out of TP) design fashion show. So it was really eggciting!

And we got to see the pretty&nice sweet mega tall models, and hot bods but bitchy stuck up models, the gorgeous but shy ones and of course the not so goodlookin but still damn tall. HAHAHAHA. IT WAS REALLY INTERESTING AND FUN!!!

AND AND! I met my idol, he's a really damn guuud photographer! inspirational much.

but my friends just totally made a joke out of his name. sigh. HAHAHAHAHA. OHWELL (:

I LAUGHED SO HARD TODAY. GUUUUUD DAY!

♥

2011-04-07T00:03:00.003+08:00

DAY DIARIES,

MA'WE

o 1 0 4

secretly thinking these guys have potential in being good photographers (:

o 2 0 4

o 3 o 4

I've been happier. (:

2011-04-03T01:41:00.002+08:00

Let me introduce you to my party people.

song trapped in mah head.

Tonight, it meant fuck you.

But moments passed, it turned into a joke.

so its now, fuck that.

I'm gonna just run and run so far for so long that when i actually turn back and look at it

its not gonna hurt anymore. cause i'm stronger than this.

never again will I ever.

2011-03-28T00:35:00.002+08:00

preview.

now, should i dye it darker? getting sick of the weird bright colour.

I'm eggcited for camp. I'm eggcited for camp. I'm eggcited for camp!

2011-03-27T15:33:00.000+08:00

punching orange,

tresses and dresses.

Goodbye mah long locks.

I've always liked sporty shoulder length hair. I can't stand having to constantly take care of long locks. HAHAHA. secretly think i'm an inner man. I just chopped off like half mah hair, or less. cause it still seems so frigging longgg. :/ but ohwell, whooper face can't take too short hair styles D: sad or whut. HAH.

sooo anyways, its the holidays!!! FINALLAYE. and i can forsee my GPA plunging down, so deep :( but thats okay, cause i had a talk with my cousin yesterday and he told me about the design industry and his years in TPdesign. It was pretty much an eye opener, i've learnt much from him too! take it easy and so do it your way! hahahah.

Looking back, firstly, i'm no longer a freshie! but the year's been tough! truckloads of fun but it comes in a package with stress as well. HAHAH. And i remember cousin saying let it run you dry. let design run you dry. Its normal. I was thinking seriously?! then it kinda made sense, its career we're talking about. HAHA. of course a balance is good, that i'm sure.

Sooo anyway, yeah,that pretty much sums up my after school days. I mean, it just started hellow. HAHA. I honestly can't remember what took place the rest of the other weeks, but i remember sewing and unpicking and sewing.all the days of my week. pretty much mundane.

So much has changed through this sem as well. I think i've learnt so much through it, and i think i did become more independant! HEE. Just sayin' HAHAHA.

ohoh, my skirts!!! there's stories behind it! like alil concept yknow whut i'm sayin. HAHAHAH.

these are the pictures I had in mah APP file. please ignore the irritating faces. HAHA.

#1. Basic skirt

#2. Pleated skirt

#3. circular skirt

i wish i knew you better.

heading out to manda's and beldy's photoshoot for their blogshop!

eggcited for them!

2011-03-14T00:03:00.020+08:00

walking on the lines

A random sketch while at jocey's office today cause i was friggin bored. HAH.

This weekend allowed for much thought for me. I think I'm falling into this deep black hole within my mind, its like thoughts and thoughts and thoughts, and it all gets trapped in there. Its like dumbledore's little glossy ball. how he can extract memory. Like how the thoughts revolves within that blackhole of mine and sometimes pops out onto my face. and i can't seem to hide the thoughts. dammit. HAH.

anyways, something to share,

can't agree more.

I really can't wait to get out of singapore. Some stupid reasons and some really unfulfilled dream within me makes me yearn so much to get out of here.

And anyway, jocey was telling me about the wizarding world of harry potter!!! I REALLY REALLY WANNA VISIT THAT THEMEPARK. secretly, i believe wizards and and something like hogwarts exists. HAHA.look at this magical place!!! and you can even buy a wand!!! HAHAHAHA. not that it works though. but i love how they decorated the entire place to such detail and i like looking at alot of thick chunky books. I feel that there's secrets within it! hahahahaha. like a thick history book.

so magical, so magical.

books and books.

like in the moovies!!!

secret train!

And i had spare time to browse fashion blogs and stuff as well. actually, i'm way behind my class. but i can't do shit cause i missed friday's lesson. cause i helped as a dresser at teens search. it was alittle peek into the fashion world backstage. hahah. like how they dress models, and arrange their clothes and stuff. quite an experience, i must say.

But back to the point, i really like these leathery looking stuffs now, hahahah. which is actually something i never really paid attention to, til now.hahah

coats!!!

and chanel's cropped cardigan is really nice! I saw like a replica of it at haji!!

and emma roberts is so pretty! are all emma's pretty? AHAHHA. pretty much the case!

I wish i had desk like that, and i feel that owls are like pretty birds. HAHAHA.yknow.

I was at pet's safari today, look at the puppies!!! SO SO SO CUTE!!! they look so cuddly!

love the brown spots.

okay, hair is fading so fast sigh :( and this was at a fitting room, ahahahah. dammit, i didnt buy the top, and look at the pretty shorts! okay, lenten sacrifice, stop shopping. but ive been window shopping alot now. proud of mah self control. HAHAHA.

About to drown myself in drafts and camp in the sewing room from tomorrow onwards. so worried i can't ketchup. ohdang.

And, i can't wait for perth trip or brisbane or wherever.

just take me away please.

2011-03-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

The obstacles of your past can become the

gateways that lead to new beginnings.

My thoughts now,

My once-upon-a-time thoughts,

but not anymore.

I just recalled a time, like sometime back, not too long ago. (HAHAHAHA) when i experienced a so-called-awakening-call to have a character check. Like what that didn't bother me for years, suddenly became the root of all my problems. Then i got out of it stronger, but also to a point where i choose to heck care, and choose to stay away or steer away from issues. Its not that i'm running away, i just see no point in solving it or anything. or i know it'll just blow over that kinda thing.

But now, I'm ready to work on things, to fix it and make it all right again. Even if its putting in the extra effort and all.

Ohyeah, I've been having this weird dreams, of me running away from bad guys or something, its always like a close shave before they actually kill me or something. Then wenz told me its because I'm running away from something in reality. Which i kinda got freaked out, because, DAMN SHE'S SO RIGHT. I AM KINDA YKNOW AVOIDING FACING THE SHIT I KNOW I HAVE TO FACE. now, that is freaky. But then, today, i had a really nice dream, a really real one, that made me giggle to myself at the thought of it. HAHAHAHA. okay, over it jas, snap back tah reality!

Okay, anyways, I feel a sudden urgency to share this, I'm loving these looks!!! but sigh, if only i'm taller and way slimmer and yadah. HAHAHAHA. fat hope jas. AHAHAAH. but still, no harm looking at it right! its like all so drape-py and comfy. way to go! wish singapore isnt all so sunny then maybe we all can dress up in comfy coats and all. AWW, thats the best life. heeheehee!

love dah shirt.

love dah skirt and bangles and hair!

FUR COAT!!!

stockings and fantabulous high socks and brown shoes!!!

And, i wish even if my hair continues to fade, i wish it'll be this orange. heeeee.

I want thick hair, i want thick eyebrows :(

friends says i'm browless, sigh, anyone wna donate some to me?HAHAHA.

Anyway, i read this over at someone's blog,

" I've never quite believed in it when people were saying we have to love ourselves. I haven't been treating my body very nicely. I probably hate everything about it. When people say it doesn't matter if you're fat, as long as you're beautiful on the inside, that's what matters. But i really would like to say fuck you to that. It does matter because.. well, because.. sigh i wish someone could just dig deep into my mind now because i can't stress this enough. Maybe the honest truth is, i really want to hate me. "

and for me to be honest, i can't help but agree with every bit she said, cause i have such moments too, and i know how it feels like. No comfort words, can actually be the best comfort.

goodnight my dear journal, i've been so honest with you lately. HAHA.

I'm gonna be honest on this other thing, i have so much to do for my apparel production and I have been a bad girl slacking my entire week away. but partly because i can only work with the sewing machine in school. but still, maybe i could have done something more then rest.

I promise i'm gonna wake up early to head to school early and work on my skirt tmr okay?

journal: OKAY.SLEEP NOW.

2011-03-02T02:48:00.004+08:00

OHMAHGAWD, I can't even screammy feelings out or cry it out.

is this the part where you say, urm, NUMB?

hate is when i seem all sad and retardedly emotional.

I'm gonna be okay.

Just wishing, hoping and really praying hard,

that someday i get to live a life out of this shithole, or place.

2011-03-02T02:30:00.003+08:00

I can't seem to face it, so how am I ever gonna fix it?

I really want all these to disappear, never wanting it so badly to be gone.

Sometimes, i feel like forcing myself so much that i hate myself, so i actually can do something about it y'know what i mean.

I don't know what the fuck to do.

Or maybe I know, just not willing to try and actually fix this shit.

help me someone, help me. I've never been this dead serious, and actually writing this shit out.

I'm gonna regret this.

sick of this shit, sick of myself, sick of everything.

And right now, i just want the world to be away, for me to shun you.

and for me to be gone.

I've never really been like that over this shit, or screw it, i feel like an emo kid. i've never been this blunt.

I'm losing ground. I wish there was someone i can talk to and just understand all these shitty feelings in me, and actually tell me something apart from others. I want to hear something different and nice and warmth and comforting. but you, you don't exist in my world.

goodbye.

2011-03-01T02:06:00.005+08:00

HEEEEEEE. FIND ME ON MAH BLOG HEADER!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I was just really bored so i started playing around, making collages and stuff, hahaha. do i look like i fit into the peeekture? HAHAHAHAHAHA. AN ATTEMPT OKAY. HAHAHA! pretty failed.

School's out tmr! (or rather, today) gonna shop with beldabones!

And moovie with ma'we!!!

2011-02-28T22:27:00.005+08:00

FLASHBANGGGG,

OOHYEAH! FINALLY done with 3Dart!!!

Not that it was veh long block, but it was a dreadful one, considering you have a teacher who teaches nothing, like NOTHING! Yeah, pretty much learnt nothing and wasted a month away. but ohwell, it was only towards the end that i realise the importance of independent learning. Which was that i was suppose to self research and stuff. But ahhh, fuck it. its over, can't change anything now anyways. HAH. Lesson learnt though. And Critic sucked, she's one difficult lady to please, but well, she allowed for a scoop for me into the fashion people world. critical and fussy.

And yes, about researching. I sincerely think reading and researching and being resourceful is highly important and essential to human being. HAHAHA. no, i meant y'know living in general. Like i really feel that i have veh low general knowledge, which kinda sucks, cause it makes me feel so dumb. but, belle says i'm not, it's just that i'm lazy to go figure. HAHAH. But know whut, i'm gonna change that very fact right now, or at least soon. I'm gonna be way more hardworking and not just curious. I really think its fun reading up on interesting facts or interesting people. I'm gonna train my reading, and not just read and sleep. HAHAHA. WHOOPS.

Anw, the weekend was fun! Started with a friday night out with zee designers, where they discovered my face's like a whooper, and i'm browless. Sigh, back to my secondary school days. I think i could actually get use to these gazillion nicknames that comes to me. HAHA. SAD LIFE OF THY. but hey, you guys better be kidding okay! muaythai kid and friesman.

So, onto a weekend flea, and ended with zee designers again. HAHAHA.

And then, reality hits my thoughts, that's a story for the later part. HAH.

LOVE THIS PIC!!! HAHAHA.

LOVE YALL.

SIBS SHOT!

FAM SHOT. HAHAHAHAH!

ohshit, face is really whooperish D:

ohyes, have you ever spent every waking moment to only that one mind throbbing annoying issue in your life? Well, i have. After years and years and years, its finally hitting me. Hitting me real hard. It hits like a massive tornado and sometimes it hits like a tremor, sometimes it creeps up to me. question is, when will this worry and fear ever leave me? SIGHOHSIGH.

I know the rules and different perceptions and stuff. but seriously, all that matters is how i see myself, isit really? I can't lose myself into this shit. gonna come out alive. okay, enough of my bullshitting now, ditch it. ditch you too. HAH (:

And its kinda sad year one's coming to an end, but i really love design school, because everywhere we walk, we can actually appreciate some interesting work done by our schoolmates, its quite fun actually! And it actually makes you well aware of where you stand, and also makes you push yourself harder i guess? HAHA. but sometimes burnout happens, not so good. HAH.

Anyways, despite the many ups and downs through the year, its been good, never regretted my choice here (:

And APP ONE IS HERE. Really hyped up yet worried, first time learning and taking sewing lessons. really excited, cause its the fundamentals of fashion design, i really hope i can do well for this, wish me luck!!! HAHAH.

Photo credits to amanda's lumix!!!

2011-02-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

HI, I'M CHINESE PART II

GIRLSSS!!!

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH at the leash, if you actually know WHO its meant for.

had never ever actually seen myself walking in action. HAH

Felix with my bag and hat

Dharshymarshy's face. HAHAHAHA. LOVE HER!

whimsical friends!

FREEEEELICKSSSS!

ADMers.

Like amusing people cause they amuse me.

Just saying.

2011-02-18T02:02:00.006+08:00

M E S S Y M I N D

this is what i did for my paper sculpture, entitled "messy mind" (:

Yesterday and today allowed for much thinking for me, so here's some to share.

in all random order.

I'm really determined to get out of singapore, and actually live in some place like this. somedays, I like to look up into the sky and actually think what god has in plan for me.

But as for me, and what i think i want, I really do not wish to stay here all my life. I really wanna go see whats out there for me. Maybe to many its like "oh who doesnt?" maybe it seems impossible. but hey, no harm thinking and no harm trying to achieve it isnt it? sometimes i really wna shout " SCREW PRACTICALITY" in your faces.

I LIKE TO DAY DREAM, AND NO, I SEE NO WRONG IN THAT (:

lovin her headband.

this is something i popped by at tumblr, i really wna be able to draw like this! I'm gonna train, hahahaha. truthfully! i'm gonna sketch all my free time away by the end of this block.

Well, this block has allowed much more free time for me. considering, I only have a single module, and no working for me. I'm pretty much living the life. HAHAHAH! FOR NOW that is.

love john galliano and his works!

And, I was watching GLEE just now, and finn told rachel, that without him now, it will be easier for her to fully concentrate on her shining like a star.

And jocey's been troubling about her switching jobs. and she said the same thing, or rather around the same thing. since she's single now, its the best time for decisions.

and even if the job kills her social life, she's gonna take it, cause she knows its best for her future.

sometimes, i think i might actually stay alone all my life, cause i really enjoy what i'm doing and the company i have. maybe how i'm living. But i'm cool with it, for now. I don't know if things will change though?

I don't exactly think i would want to or can even include someone else into my life.

That's just what i think right now.

who knows if i might change my mind soon enough yah? or maybe not.

Maybe sometimes you think you know me, or how i think, but actually, you're far from it.

sometimes, i look into your eyes and i see someone whom i knew deep down, but i can't find that someone anymore. and then i wonder, is it me, or you that's changed?

sometimes, i dont even look you in the eye anymore.

Okay, i'm done pouring out my thoughts. I'm happy today, cause i can actually feel like this, despite feeling like that. AHAHAHAHA. get?

you're sweet when you're sweet.

which is, funny.

HAH.

2011-02-15T23:45:00.008+08:00

YOU'RE MY VALENTINE.

my valentine puppet for you, hahahahahahah. no, im keeding guys.

check out kinetic wire from within! HAHAHA!

Love my DFFs the most!!!

HEARTS OUT Y'ALL!!!

Just had a feast and chillax session at gardens just now! best time to just chill with DFFs. all the laughter and all. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

LOVEYOU!!!

been feeling pretty chill with thee single module, lovin it!!!

school's out tmr as well!

gonna do mah paper sculpture at homey!

SLEEP IS GOOOOOD!

2011-02-14T23:42:00.001+08:00

The Bestest day of mah LUNAR NEW YEAR.

dharshymarshy loves me! AWWWWW!

lovin the shoes!

nice one donbom!

whats your height?

group shot!

lovin the hair

boom boom pow!!! LOVE YOU PEEPOOOO!

Love hanging out with this bunch!

we understand what its like in this new school life of our's.

The fun the craziness the rush and the stress. HAHAHAHAHAH.

only we'll gettit.

Thanks for all the joyous times!

HAPPY VDAY ALL!!!

THANKS FOR THE PREZZIES!!!

photo credits to NAHHHHKEEEP photography.

2011-02-07T02:16:00.009+08:00

THE UNFAMILIAR FAMILIAR.

A summary of my looonareeeey new year!

damn, I'm chinese. I hope I get to marry a caucasian, like a soccer player maybe. and maybe i can change my race and nationality. New year wish. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Just a dream, i know.

" what if familiar people made you feel uncomfortable? like they werent even familiar to begin with? this is really confusing. "

irritating face of mine.

japanese baby! so cute right!

chinjap baby! HAHAHA. lovely niece, somehow mix blood turns out right.HAHA.

best day of my chinese new year. HAD SO MUCH FUN!!! met both my new and old friends. (:

Baby sitting baby nicolle! i think i'll make a great mum. hellyeah! HAHAHAHA.

Y'know, sometimes i really don't expect others to understand when i myself don't.

All i know is, your opinions don't matter as much as it'll affect.

I'll get over it.

MORE PICTURE SPAMS TO COME!!!

2011-02-02T23:09:00.002+08:00

Hello there! Been away from this space for a month! Ive been wanting to update this space for the longest time, but just never got down to doing it. HAHA. I kinda did a revamp to this space as well. you can see the rest of my past entries at http://www.jassylynn.blogspot.com

That's if you're ever interested. HAHAHA.

Well, new year new look new rules!

I've been happier now! with lesser workload and all (:

And also spending more time with schoolmates and such! Really love how we can be so crazy and all together! (:

And, I'm also happy with my red hair, been receiving mix comments, but mostly its sounds pretty fine to me! AHAHAH! I also thought about it, if it looks bad, it'll just be another joke of mine. HAHAHAHA. laugh it off girl, laugh it off. (:

Its cheena new year now! I don't really know what to expect this year. oh, and according to ethan's maid, granny lives with us. yes, my granny. well, apparently her soul is here? HAHA. makes me wonder if heaven's actually just a state of mind. ohwell, that means we ate reunion dinner with granny! firs time ever! hahaha.

and anyway, here's three of my most favoureddesigns! hahaheeheehahaho.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

live by this,

just laugh it off.

XOXO.